Matsuda sighed gently walking to the park with a single ciggerette in her mouth & her hands in her pocket ingoreing everyone around her. Today was friday night, the day the shop was closed, & it would be closed for tomorrow also, thank god. Continueing to walk with her eyes shut she quickly opened them & looked forward hearing a screatch of a car turning around the corner. Looking in the middle of the buzy street a single child at the looks of it was 10 was walking across chaseing a puppy. Her eyes & moth opened wide as she saw this & her ciggerete fell from her mouth. Without thinking she dashed forward into the street pushing afew humans to the side & knocking some over she lunged her arms to the boy & dog & picked them up before quickly running to the side & falling on her back on the hard cement as the car turned & slammed into a building. The dog freaked out & ran from her as the child began crying with a cut knee. 'I hope this was enough to save his life..' she thought to herself as she sat up wipeing his tears away with a small smile, "It's fine now, don't cry.. The car won't & never will hurt you.." she said softly before wrapping her rms around him. She remembered the boy who she gave her life for, & it reminded her of him. Picking her head up she heard a woman call, "Taylor! Taylor where are you???" she child quickly looked up & rushed from Matsuda's arms & running towards the woman who she thought was his mom. The woman looked to Matsuda who was now beging to stand up wishing that this part of her would allways stay out instead of that snotty attitude she had. "How can I thank you for saveing him..?" she asked looking to Matsuda. "Just... Keep him away from the streets miss..." she said softly looking down to the ground then walking across the street & into the park. She had never felt like this before.. it was almost like a dream. For some reason she felt tears wanting to burst from her eyes, but she held back from it & began walking to the pond, over a large hill & soon looking over the moon shineing bright over the water. She remembered seeing this on the day she was brought into the soul society & walked to the side of the pond soon falling on her knees with tears streaming down her cheeks. She tryed to hold it back for a second, but she thought that she had been alive for over 300 years going through sorrow & death, & never cryed once. She thought it would be good for her. Looking into the moon lit water stareing at herself as her tears dripped into the pond. She was wering dark makeup & had afew black bows in her hair. She looked exactly diffrant than she felt.
"Look at me.. I will never pass, for a perfect bride,
or a perfect woman...
Can it be, I'm not ment to play this part~?
Now I see, that if I were truely to be myself,
I would break my own~ heart...
Who is that girl I see, stareing straight, back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I, don't know~?
Somehow I cannot hide, who I am, though I've tryed.
When will my reflection show, who I am inside?
..
When will my... reflection show...
Who I am... Inside..?"
After she sung this she fell over her knees & began sobbing in the soft grass trying to get it all out. She knew she had never acted this way before, & wouldn't like to be seen like this, espessaly by someone she knew. She sniffled slightly feeling like how she was when she was a human. She knew that this car thing was going on forever throughout her life, she was saved by a car when she was only a child, she was killed by a car, & today, she saved another child, & hopefully for a good use. She sighed gently standing abck up & feeeling her legs abit wobbly & wiped the tears from her cheeks. & looking to the moon beging to take the black bows from her hair & toss them into the pond although she knew she was going to regret doing that.
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